The screaming, the shouting, the piercing howls, The stench, the camp, it all was foul. All the rumors about the creamatory, All of it, everything, was too much for me. All alone I have become, No clothes, no shoes, completley numb. Day by day, worse and worse, Until one day, I saw the nurse. Cuts and bruises, a broken arm, There would be no end, to this meaningless harm. For a few weeks, I was told to stay and rest, For once some good news, simply the best. No work, no pain, I felt like I was cheating, I felt as if i should go back out, and take a beating. Over the next few weeks, I became strangley sick, The clock on my luck, my life, was beginning to tick. I prayed, and wondered, "Why me?", "Why me?", Why, Father, Why, how can this be. I had lost all concience, thought, and mood, Then came the day, they slipped poison in my food. All alone Help me, Help me, Im bleeding. Help me, Fix me from this brutal beating. Help me, Only you can save me. Help me, Please, do you not see? Help me, I dont want to leave this place yet. Help me, Help me... is there something you dont get? Help me, I have a family, I cant just leave. Help me, All of this, why? I cant seem to perceive. Help me, Is this it God? Am I next on your list? Help me, If this is how Im leaving, why did I exist? Help me, I just dont understand. Help me, How can this be the end? Help me, Please.. Help me, Help me. Help me All of this pain, Just take it all away. All of this pain, Please, I dont want it to stay. All of this pain, I just havent felt myself latley. All of this pain, It feels like everyone hates me. All of this pain, Why can no one else see? All of this pain, Is there no remedy? All of this pain, I guess my feelings I should hide. All of this pain, I shrivel up and die. Pain Sitting here in silence, Staring at the clock. I get a little chill inside, As my body starts to rot. Sitting here in silence, My mind begins to wander. Still staring at the clock, I cant stand it, how much longer! Sitting here in silence, I can feel myself breaking down. I have never felt this way before, My happy face turns upside down. Sitting here in silence, Somebody shout! Somebody scream! Somebody shake me, Somebody wake me, From this terrible day dream. Silence Tore my heart into a thousand pieces, I never really stood much of a chance. Everyone treats me like rotten feces, You never even spared a second glance. If only I could show you how much I care, And how much you really meant to me. I tried and lost it isnt fair, I guess it just wasnt meant to be. It was me against an army, I fought my hardest and tried my best. I hope that at least you can see, I guess its time to put this to rest. I wish it didnt have to be this way, You'll always have my mind going insane. I'll think about you every day, Now I take these pills to ease my pain. Tore my heart out IM NOT GOING TO PUT UP ANYMORE POEMS DUE TO THE FACT THAT I HAVE BEEN WRITING MORE RECENTLY AND I FOUND A PUBLISHER. ONCE I WIRTE ENOUGH POEMS I AM GOING TO BE PUBLISHED AND I WILL SOON HAVE MY OWN BOOK OUT SO IF YOU ARE INTERESTED E-MAIL ME OR SOMETHING, I DONT HAVE MUCH INFO AS OF NOW.